It happened a year ago. when I first meet him. First thought was - it soulmate, it really great one and I can't stand away from that. But after a year of "communication,' everything turns strange. Actions, worthless words and naked pictures. Hiding and putting hope on others. It called - Hurst others as some hurts you ones. I was trying to be a friend, and help him find himself. Help to be out of depression. But now I feel like used napkin. Whoever says that he needs my help? No one, exactly.
    So, I happy to receive a message like - "I know that I‘m a disappointment. I‘ve always been. And always will be" 
    It means that I was trying to change someone behaving instead of protecting myself and my borders. I was trying to show someone that he inspiring and important. but probably someone wants to hear it not from me.
    What did I learn? That doesn't try to change something. Don't burn yourself to keep other people warm. It doesn't worth it. The horrible feeling its - feeling of disappointment.  For my 23 years - I'm full of it.